Let the greatest sinners place their trust in My mercy. They have the right before others to trust in the abyss of My mercy. My daughter write about my mercy towards tormented souls. Souls that make an appeal to My mercy delight Me. To such souls I grant even more graces than they ask. (Diary 1146)
For over twenty five years I have been ending my witness talk with the above words from St Faustina’s diary “Divine Mercy in My Soul”. Anyone familiar with the “Entering Canaan” ministry also knows the Divine Mercy was instrumental in my personal healing and a huge part of Entering Canaan’s development.
I remember the first time I read those words I felt as though they were written specifically for those of us who had an abortion and believed that there was no mercy or forgiveness for them. I was intrigued with the thought that not only does He offer mercy, but He goes so far as to say that those of us who felt despair, no hope, those of us who had committed this “unforgiveable sin” had a right before others to trust in the abyss of His mercy.
Lord knows, we are tormented souls. A torment that for many lasts decades as they come to the realization of what they have done in partaking in the act of killing their own children. Without the mercy f God it is too much to even begin to look at.
I clung to this passage. It gave me hope. I longed to believe, and little by little I trusted in the words moving me through my healing process.
It has not always been easy. Our emotions can be very strong sometimes screaming despair and despondency into our ears despite our desire to believe. It takes time not to listen to the temptations which would love to keep us locked into self and despair. To believe and listen instead to the voice of He who saves us. To step out in trust one moment at a time clinging to the love and mercy He tells us are there.
He has not disappointed me. I consider myself a miracle of this mercy. A miracle of He who is Love and Mercy Itself!
It has not ended with my abortion. This and other verses from this beautiful book “Divine Mercy in My Soul” have been a mainstay for me throughout the years, often being the rope I have clung to in difficult times. I have even written a book of meditations, “A Journey to Healing Through Divine Mercy“, using quotes from the Diary of St Faustina addressing specific issues of healing. I have learned His words are true, and that He does grant even more graces than we ask. I have been in awe of HIs goodness to me.
Suffering from a past abortion? Trust, one moment at a time, in the unfathomable love of God who sent His Son to us for the forgiveness of sins, even the sin of abortions.
Blessed Feast of Divine Mercy!
Here are a couple of more of my favorites that became life lines:
Prayer In Time of Need
Jesus, do not leave me alone in suffering. You know, Lord, how weak I am. I am an abyss of wretchedness, I am nothingness itself; So what will be so strange If You leave me alone and I fall?
I am an infant, Lord, So I cannot get along by myself. However, beyond all abandonment I trust, And in spite of my own feeling I trust, And I am being completely transformed into trust, Often in spite of what I feel.
Do not lessen any of my sufferings, Only give me strength to bear them. Do with me as You please, Lord, Only give me the grace to be able to love You, In every event and circumstances.
Lord, do not lessen my cup of bitterness, Only give me strength That I may be able to drink it all.
And this one which ends the chaplet and which I had on my wall at work for years:
Eternal God, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion — inexhaustible, look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us, that in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent, but with great confidence submit ourselves to Your holy will, which is Love and Mercy itself.
Jesus, we trust in You!