I know I am a little late with this, since the parable of the prodigal son was read at mass in the beginning of this month, but I thought it was still worth getting in to as we begin Holy Week.
I have always loved the story, relating to the son who “squandered” his share of his fathers fortune in a life of sin until he had nothing left leaving him to herd swine and to recognized that his fathers servants had more than he did.
Returning home, instead of being rejected he found his father waiting to embrace him and calling for a celebration for his son who was lost, but was now found. A beautiful story of the love and mercy of the father for his sons, both the one who strayed and the one who was faithful to him.
Being abandoned by my father and thrown out of the house when I became pregnant and coerced into an abortion, I have always had difficulty relating to the unconditional love of the father. It was a huge block for me to God the Fathers love. I just did not believe it. If I am honest, I would have to admit there are still times when that shadow of fear will creep into my head asking, “Is he really going to be there for me when I need Him?” The difference between then and now is that despite any feelings I may be having, I know the answer. I may not “feel” the answer all the time, but I know, without a doubt, “Yes, God the Father is always there loving me unconditionally and He will always be there.”
This confidence I now have is a gift of His grace, a gift I can be sure of, knowing that He is waiting for me and that I will run into His arms to be embraced by Him and my son Joshua confident in His unconditional love and mercy!