Todays Readings: Friday of the first week of Lent
I have been on the healing journey from my abortion for 49 years. Yes, that is a long time. For the first 25 years I vacillated between denial and intense inward suffering, hiding my secret and shutting down any remembrance of it. I was a young teenager when I aborted my child in August of 1972. I had no comprehension of the depth of loss I would feel for many years after that day. I also had no understanding of the gravity of the consequences that I would face as I went through my life into adulthood.
I have learned so much about myself these past years and I now realize how easy it is to become tempted and fall into a life of sinfulness. You do not even realize it is happening. It is a daily challenge to live a virtuous life and often you must break down many barriers of weakness that you struggle with along the way to overcome temptation. We are human and we will often fail. It is a lifelong challenge to be working towards maintaining being in a state of grace. As we go through the process, there will be other layers of healing we will need and many relationships to reconcile and restore. The walk can be slow, discouraging and often painful.
So, we cry out to the Lord from the depths of our hearts. We can be confident that he will hear us. He may not answer us in the time or way we might hope for, but he will lead us to a complete restoration, in His time. He will not abandon us. Do not be anxious or discouraged on your journey. Stay on the road to reconciliation, even if you fall off the path multiple times. Get back up and continue to move forward. Prayer and the sacraments, especially confession and the Eucharist will be your greatest ammunition to battle evil. You are not alone. You will be in my prayers this Lent…travel with hope so that you will know joy.